Red Bull

I have just seen a car outside my window, decorated entirely in "Red Bull" emblems and with a huge beer can on the top. Why?

Thoughts

Today I thought and thought and thought
Should I tell you, should I not?
If I did, what would you say?
What would happen, and in what way?
How would you take this very strange news?
What will I do, which should I choose?
I think that I may, will, or should?
What would happen if I could?
If I dared and if I told?
What would happen were I bold?
Or maybe it will all fade past
A small problem not made to last
Today I thought and thought and thought and thought
Should I tell you, should I not?

Electric Shock 2

This time the shock is mine.
I did something that I didn't know that I wasn't supposed to do.
It scared the heck out of me, let me tell you.
At least I stopped.
I didn't go all the way.
I didn't do anything terrible and unforgivable.
Almost...
Almost...
I was so scared

Lists

1. I love lists
2. They probably don't love me quite as much
3. I make lists all the time
4. They are convenient and painless
5. They organize thoughts and make things clear
6. Lists lists lists
7. My character in my book says that she loves lists twice
8. Lists
9. Are
   
10. My
11. Best
12. Friends

Profound Thoughts

A quorum of holidays:

Thursday: Thanksgiving
Friday: The traditional women's Christmas tea (at Thanksgiving time)
Saturday: Blissful relaxation
Sunday: Birthday party (mine, for once!)

On none of these days did I blog, and therefore I have forgotten my profound thoughts by now. I can only remember that they were really good. Really good and profound.
I watched Elizabethtown. I almost cried. Not quite, however. I have only cried for a movie... mmm... twice? I can't quite remember. I only remember that I didn't cry for the end of the The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, but everyone else around me, strangely, did. Save for Julien, of course. The lad would never dream of crying for a mere movie.
Perhaps I should try to use this blog to build you a picture of what my life is like.
My life is like a novel. I am the main character. Minor characters include:
Stolid mother
Sensitive father
Annoying brother
Small, pity-inducing brother
Loud, opinionated smaller sister
Best friend
Love interest
World-wise and sharp-tongued uncle
Two other friends, with whom I am generally jocular
Corresponding family, including mother's best friend, brothers' best friends, and "adorable" love interest for younger sister

My plot so far has been interesting, making it through the preteen years, and trying not to grow up (much to the peevement of Julien ["Why wouldn't you want to grow up?"]. I'll leave you to guess if he's the love interest or one of the friends. I know which one my mother would pick). I'm hoping that the climax will come soon, as the small dramas have really not turned out to be of much interest. Suffice it to say, if my life was a book, I wouldn't read it. And I wouldn't blame you for not reading it either.

Wishes

I wish.

How many times have you thought those words?

How many times have your wishes come true?

Didn't it feel great?

Some of my wishes:

To fly
To get maple instead of ginger granola for breakfast one day
To stay this age forever
To be able to keep secrets
To be able to tell some secrets
To be able to write a novel
To live to the fullest extent
To love to the fullest extent
To laugh at myself and mean it
To stay homeschooled for the rest of my life
To get large bookshelves for my newly painted room
To love God passionately and know him intimately

Some of my wishes that have been granted:

To be honest and raw and open with a) Sarah Bee b) My grandmother c) Julien
To talk to God without anything in between
To sing to the glory of God
To get contacts
To get ginger instead of banana granola for breakfast one day
To write a novel (but not by myself!)
To tell the biggest secret on my mind to the only person who would understand it
To have alive characters in my story (some are too alive - Cremorna!)

What are your wishes? Make a comment and post them to me.

Which have been granted? Tell me about them.

This blog doesn't only have to be about me.

Blessings

For Him:

Dear Julien
Known you forever sometimes
Though it’s only been a short while
Finally we can talk
We used to be scared of each other
But at last I can tell you what I think and
Not be frightened of what you’ll say
I can be philosophical
And odd
And rather mad
And you don’t mind
I know that you’ll always have a different opinion than mine
Poking me with questions
Looking at the world a different way
Every day
Your father thinks he knows us
Your mother thinks that also
My parents agree and laugh
But you and I are different than that
We don’t know everything,
But we talking about it makes it seem as though we do
And that’s all right
I call Blessing upon you
May God bless you
May He teach you marvelous wonders
May He rein you in
And let you grow
May He guard and protect you
May He talk to you quietly when you are listening
May He yell at you when you are not
May you come to know Him better
Praise Him all the days of your life
And may you never forget us
Who were your friends in childhood
And who love you better than all others

For Her:

Dear Sarah
Quiet but joyful
Searching and waiting
Holding back and running
Undecided
Learning
She knows my heart
I know hers
We are like blood sisters
Born under the same stars
Knowing the same truths
Breathing the same air
And different
How different!
I call Blessing upon you
May God bless you
May you find what you seek
May you find truth
And realize the joy in everything
May passion come into you
May you scream with joy
May you raise up your voice in jubilation and know the glory of God
May He talk to you
May you listen
May you hear Him in your heart
And sing with joy for the passion of knowing Him
Better than all others
And forsake all that you hold dear
To follow Him

For Him:

Dear Noah
Stable, right
You are always there, the same
Fun to talk with
With witty humor
And a smile over IM :)
Thank you for being here
For talking with me
For gently correcting me
For being a boy
But one that is my friend
Does not insult me
Does not patronize
Is always kind and helpful
Who does not demand that I am in love with him
Or try to find if I am
Or believe that I could be
You know I am not
And I don't have to ask
You know what I think and am happy with it
Thank you
For being a boy that I love
But don't have to
I call Blessing upon you
May God bless you
May your life be happy
Your endeavors fruitful
May your smile never wane
May your table never lack for food
May your children love you
May your wife respect and love you
May you love and respect her
May you never lose your imagination
May your RPG characters succeed
Amen.

Electric Shock

I didn't know it was like that for you.
I didn't know you felt that way.
I didn't know that you are you.
Every single blessed day.
I thought I understood but I
Seem suddenly far away
Because I didn't know that you
Are you every single day
How could I have done this to you?
How could I have been blind?
To watch my truths drift all away
Watch lies grow in my mind.
I thought it didn't matter much
That I could ignore it all
But then I came back down to earth
Opened my eyes and heard the call
I hope I didn't wound you
I know that you won't think I did
I hope I didn't hurt you
I know that you don't know I did
I'm sorry I didn't see it
I'm sorry for the things I didn't do
But I didn't know that every day
You are only you